To Hold & To Have [17]

It was 3abdulla, he was sitting alone on the shore just staring off into space.  I decided to go and sit beside him, maybe he would forgive me for what happened. I thought about it alot today, if i were in his postion and my cousins would have done such a thing to my friend i would have killed them and i would've been extremely embaressed.

When i sat beside him, he didnt seem to notice me. He just sat there lost in his thoughts, i was quiet or a few seconds thinking whether or not to say something now or wait for him to notice me sitting there beside him.

Me: Hey, its kinda late..

He suddenly snapped back to reality and was surprised to see me sitting beside him.

3abdulla: magidart anam, and why arent you sleeping?

Me: well, 7itan ana magidart anam.

He ignored me and continued looking at the waves crashing on the shore. i'v always loved the sound of it, its really relaxing and the smell of the sea too. I wanted to apologize to him for what happened today, but i didnt really have the words. but i gave it a try anyways..

Me: 3abdula..i..i..im..

3abdula: sorry?

Me: umm, yes..wallah i really am

3abdula: you embaressed me, mu bas jidaam 7mayen. jidaam kil rab3ee ily shafouw ish9aar

Me: We didnt mean anything, we just did it as a joke..ma daraina ina he was going to be that mad

3abdula: 3a6aito bottle of sea water, w you dont think hes going to get mad?

Me: We didnt think of it in that way, we didnt think ina what we did will come back and bite us in the ass..

3abdula: Your pathetic..

pathetic? i really have nothing else to say, i apologised. what else? im all alone, no 3awaash to tell me what to say or have 3awaash to save me from such a situation. I looked at him, and as usual his face was stoic and emotionless.

Me: Im trying to apologise here and your telling me im pathetic? i really dont now what to tell you right now.

3abdula: Then dont say anything. I dont need your apology and sympathy and i really dont need you to be all dr.phil on me. 

i felt the tears fill my eyes, and i was trying so hard not to cry, the last thing i need is me crying infornt of him.

Me: b..b..bas i really am sorry

3abdula: DAMNIT REEMA I SAID I DONT NEED YOUR APOLOGY!

Me: *sniff sniff* d..d..dont shout..

3abdula: latabcheen, 7mayen made you cry today and if you do cry now  then that doesnt make me any better than him. 

Me: Ooh s..s..so now your being kind?

Ugh! i hate it when i become all stuttery because im crying.

3abdulla: Look, im sorry for shouting. bas intaw mat3arfoun 7mayen, lo ana mu yaay chan 3ady 6agkum jidam il nas w ma abeekum itkounoun ib hal maw8if marathanya le2ana mu kil mara bakoun hnee 3ashan asa3idkum..now yalla smile w latabcheen

He placed his hand on my cheeck and gently wiped my tears with his thumb. Now i felt at ease, the hard part is finally over.

Im tired of always starting the conversation, so maybe now its his turn..

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Very short post, but atleast i posted;p

peace, love and unicorns

xx