To Hold & To Have [8]

I sent the message, and thats when i realized 3awaash was still in my room. She had been silient the whole time just listening to our conversation. i felt kind of embarressed that a guy like him had such a strong impact on me and nearly made me cry. She looked at me with her hazel eyes wide open. I had nothing to tell her or anything to explain, she heard it all her self. I just looked back at her.


It felt kind of wierd just staring at my sisters face, so i got off of the bed to go wash my face with cold water.

When i came back 3awaash was still sitting on my bed.

3awash: Entaay min9ijiich?

Me: Shinu?


3awash: Walaa reema i was just waiting for you to cry 3ashaan a9ikiich 6raag. ma9arliich 3 days it3arfeen el walaad and already hes broken your heart. Its not his fault, he doesnt even now you like him, he thinks you see him as a friend. uhwa masawa shay ghalaa6..

Me: Embalaa he did!

3awaash: Tell me shsawaa?

I thought about what she said for a second, and to tell you the truth..shes right. Since he sees me as a friend, he didnt say what he said as a way to hurt me or anything.


Me: mm..9aa7 kalamiich. bas still mabee akalma, hes rude

3awash: kaifiich..a7san ba3aad

At that moment my mobile started to vibrate

1 message recieved

+96599...

Laish? shsawait?


5:45pm

i looked at 3awaash in a "shagoul?" look. She smilied..

3awaash: Mu giltaay matabeen itkalmeena? 5alaa9 3ayaal..

I ignored the message and continued doing my homework.

1 message recieved

+96599...

????

5:48pm

UGH! shyabee? he doesnt get ina i dont want to talk to him? and i think the message i sent him is enough to explain everything, my fingers slowly crept to my mobile to reply to his message, but as soon as i realized what i was doing i quickly switched off my mobile.

I figured i should take a little nap, today has been full of drama and had a rollercoaster of emotions..

The next day..

i woke up to the sound of my deafining alarm. i seriously have to change it. mahee 7ala kilyoum it scares the crap out of me.

i showered and changed into my uniform, put some lotion ,sprayed some perfume, grabbed my bag and mobile and left. In the car i switched on my mobile, to tell you the truth i expected like 50 messages from 3abdula..but to my disappointment i only recieved 1.

1 message recieved

+96599..

latrideen kaifiich, bas i just wanted you to now that it wasnt me bil fone..

11:03pm

How can it not be him? ya3ny who else? well theres only 1 way to find out..

message sent

+96599...

what do you mean?;s

6:31am

7adaa mu wagta..i have enough on my mind including 2 tests and 1 quiz that i didnt study for w ana mu nag9a i think about 3abdula.

Since i didnt expect any messages from 3abdula soon, i shoved my mobile into my pocket, opened my chemistry binder and started studying.

When i got to school, most of my friends were already there. I said goodmorning and started catching up on the latest gossip. i noticed a black haired girl sitting alone and staring at me from a distance, she had straight hair and white -almost transparent- skin, ive seen her a few times in the corridors but never really paid any attention to her.

Ksaraat 5a6ry, she looked very lonley so i smiled to her. Suddenly, without smiling back, she got up and started heading towards me.

To Hold & To Have [7]

My heart skippted 3 beats, and my mouth turned dry. Everything is moving too fast for me..first the coincidence in the jam3iya, then the message and now this? 9iij ena im really happy that he realized that i exsist , but im not the type of girl that talks to guys on the fone and stuff. Ive never even had a boyfriend for godsake. But i picked up the fone anyways..

Me: Aloo?

3abdula: Hallaa walaa, shlounich?

Me: Ib5aiir il7ilmdellah

3abdula: La7'6a digeega okay?

When he was back, his voice sounded different..Its not the same soothing voice

3abdula: Kanyy radait

Me: mhmm

3abdula: la7'6a la7'6a..entaay shfeech 3ala sara?

What? i didnt even say anything about her, well i mean not technically..i dont even no the girl!

Me: Haw shsawaiit?

3abdula: 9ADOO!! Hehehehe

MAYNOUUN HATHAA?! i nearly had a heart attack, i dont now what i would have said if he wasnt joking..

Me: Hehe

That was all i managed to say

3abdula: haa shlouniich sha5barich?

Maybe he forgot that he already asked me this question.. ooh well..

Me: Zaiina il7imdila..w iinta?

3abdula: Tamam walaa

I was soo nervous, i didnt have anything to say so i figured keeping quiet was the best thing to do.

3abdula: Shfeech saktaa?

Me: Nothing, bas it feels akward

3abdula: What does?

Me: Madry..talking to you i guess

3abdula: Laish? lail7een ma ta3awadtay?

Me: hehe, bismilaah bas 9arlina 2 seconds on the fone

He was quiet for a seconds but then he replied..

3abdula: Umm L-laa2, i mean from all the guys you talk to, its akward talking to me?

Me: Im in a all-girls school..

3abdula: 8a9dii bil fone..

Me: umm..i dont talk to guys bil fone, min galik?

3abdula: You still havent figured it out?

I knew who he was talking about..who else? Sara. shtabee hathy? i dont even no her..

Me: w intaa im9adig Sara?

3abdula: Madry, a9adigha wela laa2?

Me: Laa2..

3abdula: Ahaaaa

I could hear the sarcasim in his voice, he doesnt believe me.

Me: Even if i did, why would it concern you?

3abdula: It doesnt hehe..

Shit, fashlaaaaaa..

Me: Sara tir'6a you talk to me? ya3ny you 2 are together w she hates me and stuuff

3abdula: w min gaal tadry?

Me: Ooh ya3ny shes is your girlfriend, wenta gaa9 3alaay itgoul ur frnd hehe

I was just laughiing as a way to cover up for myself..i dont want him to think that im this psycho who is crazy over him

3abdula: umm..eeh eeh 9idteeny!

Even though i expected it, hearing it from him was still shocking. I wished it wasn't true but it is..i felt tears filling up in my eyes.

I hung up before he can say anything else.

That is not the same 3abdula that i saw. The other one was kind and funny. The other one denied that he was with Sara. But this one is different..this 3abdula asks alot of questions and is mean. But most importantly..this 3abdula is the exactly the same as all the other guys, the kind that dont care about anyone elses feeling except there own.

While typing a message, i faught the urge of letting my tears flow down my face. but im not going to cry over a guy..especially not for a guy who i just met.

Message sent

+96599...

Please dont call or text me again.

5:37pm

Sooon;p

i7iim i7iiim! Ive been lazy hal ayaam(a)! Well not lazy ..stressed to be exact! You have no ideaa how much tests, quizzes and projects we have (only if ur in my skool)

Soo i promise you beautifull readers that i'll post on thursdaay nite..i thought about writing a quick post to tell u what happened bil fone call but i didnt think it'll be good since i only have 9 minutes until my studying break is over..yes yes not 10 minutes..9!!

-tengo que irme..adios;*

!!

MALAIIT YA NAAAS!

Nearly 2 months of skool left, ya3ny 60-ish days! 9iij ena this yr maar bser3aa bas, i cant take skool anymore, abyy a6laaa3 without worrying 3an tests w projects! Aby arou7 el shalaaih w asafir w astaniis

I CANNT WAIT FOR THE SUMMER BREAAK! kel ma i wake up in the morning its just 1 day less till the summer break, hathaa il imsakitnee;p

hhhhhhhhhhh *breathing out* (a)!

Of to studyy..toodles (exactly what im talking about)

To Hold & To Have [6]

At Home..
After i got home, i changed into my comfortable sweats and went to eat lunch. While i was eating i couldnt help but think about 3abdula. Hes soo handsome, these mesmorizing hazel eyes and tanned skin, his structured face and muscular body, his perfectly filled lips and smooth black hair, if i had to imagine the perfect guy, i'd imagine him.

Maybe its not just a crush after all, i think im starting to like him. noo noo!! i cant like him, he doesnt like me and never will, he has sara. If i like him then i'll start loving him, and loving him will just cause me pain and heart ache since hes with another girl.

I finished my lunch so i went to start my homework. At first i was focused on doing my work, but after a few minutes i found my self doodiling and writing 3abdula's name on my notebooks with hearts around it. I really dont want to like him, why cant i get the fact that he has a girlfriend? I quickly tore the page, scrunched up the paper and threw it.

While i was buzy doing my work 3awaash dar3imat into my room.

3awaash: Waay im so bored!

Me: Ga3da asawee my homework

3awaash: wehh ana 5alaa9t minzimaan

As usual 3awash was doing her daily routine of noisiness, looking through my stuff and itnabiish. Madry shloun bas ilcha7aat the crumbeled up paper in trash can.

3awaash: SOME-ONE IS IN LOVVVEEE

I felt the blood rush into my face and heat started radiating out of my face.

Me: Chuub! im not! he's just a crush!

3awaash; yeaa suuuree, that explains why you have hearts all around his name..

Me: mm..Maybe i like him just a slight bit

I looked at her with my puppy eyes glittering. My mobile started vibrating

1 message received
i opened it, and the message read;

*yaal bal3aa! malyoun kakaaw haa?*

NOWAAAY!! theres no freakin way the message could be from 3abdula, he doesnt even have my number!

Me: 3AWAASH LI7GAAY! i think im having a heart attaaack! i5thaay my mobile w shoufaay!

She grabbed my mobile and read the message out loud. Her eyes grew wide with excitment.

3awaash: Yallaa reply! what are you waiting for?

My hands were trembiling as i typed the reply

*Sorry i think u have the wrong number*

I figured that was the safest reply, i didnt want him to think that i was expecting anything from him.

1 message recieved

*Ooh, asif! ur not reem?*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA5 GALBY!! ya3ny its him!

*Embala i am, do i no u;s?* ..i replied

Hehe ya3ny ma adry minu..

1 message recieved

*im sure u do..*

UGH! why doesnt he tell me that its him, im starting to doubt that its him..

*Are u expecting me to guess?* ..i replied

1 message recieved

*No not really, Its me 3abdula..i just figured you'll no it was me min awaal msg*

*Hehe sorry i didnt think of that, umm where'd you get my number from?* ..i replied

1 message recieved

*i have my people;)..*

*Like who? saraa?* i replied

That ought to teach him! Next came something totally unexpected..

Incoming call +96599......

To Hold & To Have [5]

3awaash: Reema relaaax relaax he saw us!

Me: 7ILFAAY?

3awaash: Uu9 uu9 kahu hes heading towar-..Halaa 3abdula

3abdulla: Halaa..shlounkum?

Me: b-b5aiir el 7-7emdelaah *why am i stuttering? okay reem calm down*

3abdula: Reem chiniich 6iltaay min thaak elyoum? *7eta his sarcasim eyanin*

Me: Hehee *shagoul??*

3awaash: agoul, ana barou7 ayeebly ice-cream min hnaak

NOO 3awaash lat5aleeny brou7y!! too late..she walked away.

3abdula: Soo..

Me: Soo..

Suddenly his fone started ringing, and we both jumped.

3abdula: haa sarouna? ..enzain enzain ana mash'3oul, akalmich bi3dain...eeh eeh..yalla byee

Ooh the audacity! jidamy 3aad?

Me: sarouna? minu? *i just HAD to no! adry im guna regret this later*

For a moment he looked puzzeled and a slight bit shocked. i dont think he expected this question.

3abdula: sarouna? umm my friend..

Me: yeaa yeaaa

3abdula: Shinuuu?! min9ijy!

Me: Eeh haw ma gilt shay, i believe u..

Aaaa5 ya 3awshoo! wainiich? thalaftaay w 5alaiteenny brou7y..i cant talk to him any more knowing he has a girl that he probably loves.

Me: Anyways, i got to goo. byee

3abdula: Shfeech? why the rush?

Me: Mafeeny shay

I walked awaay, my heart was begging my legs not to move but my mind was forcing them too. i found 3awaash in the next aisle, she must have heard everything, not that anything really happened.

3awash: LAISH RI7TAAY YAA SHAGOUUUL?

Me: 3awaash ya3ny tabeeny ag3aad jidama w ajabla ikalim his girlfriend? wallah i cant take it, 9ij ina hes just a crush but still..

3awaash: mm, yea your probably right.

Me: enzain imshaay 5an nidfaa3..

As me and 3awaash headed to the cashier. I peeked at the aisle where me and 3abdula were, he was still there with a smirk on his face. He was looking around, but when he spotted me our gazes met, and our eyes locked for a second, and then he winked. Not a flirty or cocky wink, but a fun and cheerfull one.

Did i miss something?

To Hold & To Have [4]

In School

"The renaissance occured after the fall of Rome and the dark ages" ....jeez, hathy ma taskit, i cant concentrate anymore! i daydreamed about everything. What im going to wear for the avenues today, what me and 3awaash are going to do there, you name it.. but mostly 3abdula.



There is a Sara in our class, but i doubt its her. She looks so innocent w ma a3tiqiid 3indaha hal suwaliif.



"..the northern renaissance was slightly different from the italian renaissance. Although they both.."



I got my mobile out and hid it under my binder and started texting 3awaash.



*3AWSHOO! any updates about Saraa and 3abdula? i soo need to no who this Sara is! im soo curious!*



As i was about to press send..



"REEM! you no mobiles are not allowed in classes! give it to me and you can get it at the end of class"



Damn it..i handed her my mobile with the messsage still unsent.



"Three awshoo" IS SHE READING MY MESSAGE OUT LOUD? "any updates about sara and three abdulla? i soo need to no who this sara is! im soo curious. oooh, so is that what is more important than history huh?" umbaay shtabee hathy? eeh eeh it is more important! fashlaa!



All my class looked at me and burst into laughter. I wished i could just curl into a ball and disappear. At that very second the bell rang and everyone started making there way out the class room. Ashwa, saved by the bell!



I got my fone back and rushed out the class room to avoid any comments by the students who were still here.

I went to my locker, got my books out ,shoved them into my bag and hurried downstairs to our car. A few of the students who were with me in history class were giving me the "thats her" looks with there friends. Since i am in an all-girls school the word about my message incident will spread in a flash. Ugh!


In The Car

Me: 3awaaash! 6afiich 6afiich! tadree sh9aar ib historty class? umbaay the teacher 7maraa fashilatny jidaam the whole damn class!!

3awaash: adry adryy simaa3t!

Me: OH MY GOD! amdahuum! el 8u9aa ma 9arlahaa 20 minutes!

3awaash: Hehee adry! shinsawee ba3ad..agoul mishtahya kakaaw ishrayich inmur el jam3iya gabel la inriid il bait?

Me: yeaa suree.. babo before u go house, mur jam3iya enzain?

Babo: Enshalaah madaam.

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Jam3iyaa

3awaash: Reema it9adgeen widy a5ith kil hal chocolates! YOU3ANAA

Me: Hehe yal ba6aa!

3awaash: mm, ba5ithly galaxy, time-out, snea..HHHHHHEEEEEE (ish'hagaat) REEMAA ILTAFAAY WARAAAACH!!

i looked back..

Me: SHIT!! 3awaash shasawee? shakly 7ilu wela 5ayes? asaliim??

Freaky!!

LOTS of freaky things have been happened lately!! ta5ayilaaw thaak ilyoum i was thinking of one of my frnds, i havent seen her in month! that same day i went to the avenues w i saw her hnaak. Coincidence? maybe.

But noo it doesnt stop there, i was talking to another frnd w we planned to go out since i havent seen her for ages. I go to starbux, AND I SEE HER THERE!

Okay. the last and freakist thing! i was sitting in maki with my family w i was daydreaming (as usual) chan i told my sister "umbay sha5bary R minzimaan ma shifnahaa!" 10 minutes later, R walks into maki!!

Wallah im starting to get freaked out;p I'll update my imagenary readers if another wierd coincidence happend!

Btw, still no followers;/! YALLAAH PPL! im starting to give up!;p


xx toodles xx